Infinitely Different

The First Clue I needed a reason. Something to explain the burnout. The inconsistency. The feeling of being “almost there,” but never quite able to hold it together. I kept chasing success—only to crash, again and again. I wasn’t lazy. I wasn’t careless. So why couldn’t I be the person I was supposed to be? My first breakdown was nearly a decade ago. I went searching for an answer. A reason. I paid for answers. I paid for an assessment…. Read morePart Two: The Answer — Finally, The Why

This isn’t a memoir in the traditional sense. It’s not a timeline of events or a catalog of accomplishments. It’s a story about identity—about what it means to live for decades without a name for your difference, and what happens when that name finally arrives. This story is broken it into five parts. Each one reflects a different phase of that journey—from collapse to clarity, from survival to self-definition. It’s not a straight line, and it’s not conventional. But it’s… Read morePart One: The Weight — 40 Years of Almost, Without a Why

Is It Still My Voice If I Use AI? For most of my life, my voice has lived in my head — loud to me, silent to everyone else. I thought that was just how it would always be… until now. Yesterday, I wrote about using AI to help me write — and why I’m not ashamed about it. What I didn’t expect was how quickly that decision would lead to one of the most revealing moments I’ve had in… Read moreIs It Still My Voice If I Use AI?

This isn’t a defense of AI. It’s a story about finding my voice after years of silence For most of my life, I’ve struggled to put my thoughts and feelings into words in a way that others truly understand. Inside my head, things make perfect sense — ideas connect, emotions have depth, meaning is clear. But when I try to explain them, they often come out tangled or incomplete. That’s not because I don’t know what I mean. It’s because… Read moreWhy I Use AI — And Why I’m Not Ashamed of It

I used to think being myself would cost me opportunities. Turns out, it’s exactly why they’re creating one for me. My employment contract ends at the end of this month. I’ve been covering a parental leave, and the person I’m covering for comes back next week. There are no positions open at the moment. Until today, I hadn’t heard a word about what might happen next. For months, my future felt cloudy at best Then today, the CEO made a… Read moreThey Know I’m Neurodivergent—And They’re Creating a Role Just for Me

It’s day two of having this blog, and already the doubts tried to sneak in. I felt my neurodivergence more than usual at work today. Not in a diagnostic sense—more in the “I’m not blending in and I can feel it” sense. I wasn’t sure if I was reading the room right. I was too direct, too intense, too much. Or at least, that’s how it felt in my head. I even found myself wondering if I’d crossed a line—like… Read moreFirst Post: “Unmasked, Unfiltered, and Still Showing Up”

For most of my life, I thought I was just bad at being normal. I masked, I mimicked, I overcompensated. I built routines around chaos and called it coping. It wasn’t until much later—after the burnout, the confusion, the endless self-questioning—that I finally received the diagnosis that reframed everything: AuDHD. Autism and ADHD, wired in ways the world wasn’t built to understand. Like languages I’ve always spoken but never knew how to translate, until diagnosis gave me the keys. One… Read moreUnmasking Me: A Candid Neurodivergent Journey After Diagnosis